i had refraind to mention this to you, diary, because i wanted to surprise my folks. but my mom is too clever and deduced it anyway. Isilon accepted my offer to be team lead. this is going to be a very exciting and challenging time; my previous experience as a lead was in a company where i was considered the technology guru. this is definitely not the case at Isilon and i have a great many things to learn.
can sometimes be an opportunity – the trick is having enough faith to carry it through. (this quote provided by the writers of the ’everwood’ show on the WB)
i am looking ahead and i see a large hill before me. i am scared and weak but determined. for now, however, i will camp at its base and reflect on the path travelled so far.
my visit was too soon. but it went so well. Eriko’s family was kind and generous to me in a way that was definitely different. Dad said that things would change once she met my family and i could see that in their behavior towards me. Eriko and I had a great time together. there were a couple of moments when i needed space or she needed space (not many) and i my current theory is that we are both the strong, silent type.
I had many unfounded concerns and paranoid fears when I arrived but somewhere inside I have begun to see things with vision that is clear and healthy. I think Eriko and I are very much in the same place and I realize this more and more as I learn to listen to my heart and not my head. Additionally, I realize more and more that I am not using my head to its full capabilties.
