I just took the GRE mathematical review and scored myself – a whopping 78%. That is pathetic. I suck. After reviewing my answers the majority were careless mistakes. Dissappointing but encouraging. I can improve ife, it will just take patience and practice. I meant to mention this last night, because I was very excited, but I’m still excited… I was cooking! Nothing spectacular, actually. I just made some mashed potatoes and I boiled some chicken which I then shredded and soaked in BBQ sauce.

Being in a new place as thrown of my routine. I don’t go to bed at the same time, I misplace things [my beloved hat!], I leave lights on and other general inefficiences. I hope to rectify this situation ASAP.

i’m really quite annoyed with the speed of my computer. so annoyed that i am strongly considering upgrading it. i’m torn, of course. i’m bothered that i haven’t been able to get all three monitors working in console or X. i’m distracted by my tv! i have never had the computer and the tv in the same room before. i think work is going well, but i have lots and lots to learn.

Eriko took some time out to email with me a little bit. It was nice. I didn’t bring it up, but she realized that she hasn’t made a lot of time for me lately. That’s OK – I like the fact that I am becoming less dependent on her for my emotional well-being. I’m learning to take her gifts of love, place them next to those of my family, and draw on them when I need them.

i got a short, sweet note from Eriko and i feel as if i’m recharged. i feel as if i could go weeks without talking to her without any worrying. i feel very energized in general. i need to work more diligently on my short term goals: excercise my body, my mind, and my heart. i want to be swimming more, i want to put more time into reading and learning, and i want to pay closer attention to my desires.

All I want is some Internet access at home, yet I have none. I have been struggling with this installation process for comcast for two days now. If I don't get it working by the end of this weekend I'm cancelling and I'll have to either find another option or do without Internet access at home. Actually, I don't know if I can realistically consider the last option. It would be nice, for the break and the freedom from information overload, but I have to remain responsible to my servers and not being able to check on their condition or perform remote maintenance (without trudging into work) worries me.