I don’t hear much from Eriko these days. I’m surprised sometimes, especially when I recall the moments in which I was overbearing and couldn’t help talking to her. Not that she always responded, which was an obvious sign that I needed to learn to give her room. That is the learning process I go through now. I haven’t heard her voice since March but I don’t want to call her. Everytime I call her my dad asks me if she has called me yet.

I was expecting some kind of 80’s style Breakfast Club like romantic comedy. Instead, I see Audrey Hepburn’s name on the credits. I enjoyed the movie and she is a pretty dame too. The day has arrived in which the counter indicating my age will click once more to another digit. How would I rate the first 25 years of my life? A solid B. I feel as if I am a child, just learning the ways of the world, just learning what I want and what I don’t, just learning to understand myself.

My company decided to reduce its workforce by about 20% today. This comes about a month before we are due to finish coding up the next release. My best wishes go to those who left. Thankfully, my job is still secure, although I question whether I should have been let go. My team was definitely hit hard, losing 25%. The man whose code I’m replacing was let go and I will soon be responsible for the area that a woman was let go.

My wrist hurts a little. I’ve been working too much; more than I want. If anything, it helps the time pass quickly; yet when I pause everything seems sooo slow. I am excited to go home. Excited to see my family; excited to see my girl. I have a lot of work to do. Sometimes I wonder if I will finish it; but what is the point in wondering that? I saw Dr.

I woke up about 7:30… actually, I woke up at 3 to check on the build, which I did not break. Whew. I actually got out of bed close to 8. I had a nightmare in which I cheated on Eriko and then I was going to tell her. I woke up very grateful that it was just a dream and was tempted to tell about it. I know I have a deep desire to tell her everything.

I forgot to write last night, so I’ll try and recall it now : I worked for about 5 hours yesterday – for the most part it was good productive work and I felt good about it; then Susie came online and I screwed around a bit. Nontheless, I left work right after 5, which I planned on doing. Got some yummy Tup Tim Thai and ate that along with a beer.