I am spending my Friday night relaxing with some mind-numbing entertainment. After work I had dinner with Kaya, my co-worker. I like Kaya. We went to McMennaminns and each had the Captain Nemo burger and a Ruby (beer). Then I came home and while watching Mystery Men I organized some papers, receipts, etc. that had long been overdue. My main purpose was to find the receipt for my UW class so Isilon can reimburse me.

It was a pretty entertaining movie that David rented. Lots of action, with some heros and political stuff thrown in too. It wore me out! I elected to relax this evening rather than stay late at work. Soon, bedtime.

I’ve been at work way too long tonight, but I got some shit accomplished. About time! I hope the productivity streak can continue. I had my last swimming class tonight, we learned the elementary backstroke, or chicken-airplane-soldier. It was cool. I feel more and more natural in the water everytime I get in, now I just need practice, practice, practice! I secured vacation today at work for going to visit Eriko in December.

Got to work about 9 today; I was up late making sure that a build finished, and I was worried it would break so I had to set my alarm for a couple hours into it to check; sure enough, broke again. Finally I fixed it but I didn’t particularly enjoy losing sleep. ;P I worked pretty well today, got quite a few things accomplished and I am almost feature complete.

So I realized today that I don’t hate my job; I have simply been pushing the threshold on burning out. I made some pretty big mistakes, many due to my false assumptions about what my co-workers would do for me and what I was expected to do. I realized that the most important goal I have is to make sure that I’m doing well on a day to day basis – of course, I know this, but can’t seem to remember it.

I have tried to refrain from writing in my diary on a whim, but rather to do it habitually at the same time everyday, etc, as my budyd David suggested. Unfortunately, I’m just not there yet. ;P He’s getting married, BTW, and once the ring goes on his finger I will have officially won a $50 bet that I placed with my dad as a teenager. We didn’t bet on the duration of the marriage, but I am hoping it can stand the test of time.