Well, I’m not as excellent as I hoped to be; I’ve got work to do. I received a 3.7 in my Algorithms class after a dismal 82 points in the final exam. Shucks.

I didn’t get nearly as much accomplished at work as I would have liked; I simply lacked motivation and concentration. sigh This project has me bogged down in minutia. But tomorrow is the first day of the rest of my life! ;P

What a chore! Is it my age? My upbringing? My environment? Circumstance? For wwhatever reason, I feel impatient these days and I seem more likely to make mistakes. Have I always been impatient? Probably so. As my buddy Susie says, I’m just lazy and spoiled. Is this part of my nature, or do I have the capacity to change it? For instance, I want email from Eriko! Alas, several days have passed.

My dad told me that it is normal to have doubts; I would take it one step farther and say that it is good to have doubts – without them I don’t get any participation from my head. All too often I lead with my heart, but as my dad also told me, the feeling of love comes and goes – without my head I have no backup for my heart.

I will write. I am wondering about Eriko; but more in particular, I am wondering about me. Sometimes I wonder if I just have a Japanese fetish – surely I have this image in my mind, built up through years of curiosity and mystique. What would possess me to ask a woman to marry me when we hardly know each other? Because I am in love with an image and a picture it was very easy to slide that mold around her.

My room re-org is not complete, but I took apart my desk and fit all three of my monitors! Of course, only one is actually working at the moment but I see the future… and it is bright! ;P My last note from Eriko was that she was going to the agency to buy a plane ticket… that was several hours ago… talk about suspense! Time for some leisurly reading and the sack, while listening to the Commodores.