I always claim I am impatient; etc. Apparently, however, there are times when I can be patient – waiting for Eriko. Luckily my plate is overflowing with work and school. So I really don’t have time to write this entry. ;p

My only wish for us is that we can learn to love each other; we can learn to live our dreams together; that we can grow old knowing that we have found a partner in life. I have given it considerable thought and I won't pay your loan. I apologize; I have led you on; it was not my intention. I am sure it is obvious to you that I want to give you all that I have, all that I am.

I told Eriko that I needed her to meet my family. I don’t know how she’ll take it, I really don’t enjoy asking her to do things. I had to be honest, however, I need to feel as if this relationship is going somewhere – and her meeting my family is the solution to that.

i can’t concentrate on work, i can’t figure out my homework my body wants to do nothing but drink water my mind wants to do nothing but figure you out i’m scared; i’m alone i don’t know if you need me or my money i know that doubt is part of everything; i feel it now it tears me up; it kills my motivation; it destroys my confidence it isn’t your fault; nothing is; this is my doubt, my worry

a woman who will leave behind all she knows to begin an adventure with me a woman who understands that a little appreciation goes a long way a woman who realizes that appreciation is never habitual but heartful a woman who knows how to break me and never does a woman who treats my love as a limited and valuable resource a woman who lets me love her a woman who learns to love me