i don’t think i have anything really interesting to right about… it feels like i hardly have two seconds to myself… yet, at the same time i can recall several times this weekend when i did nothing.. ;) i’m starting to take my studies much more seriously (although i don’t have much choice; japanese is demanding more from me). in addition, my workload at isilon is increasing as well – as our company grows, there will be a surge in work until i can hire some more people and get things quieted down again… plus, my social life is more tasking as well!

I get so tired of having an internal thread talk about being gay or remembering that Andrew Marshal and I played doctor. The contact was innocent and yet I feel so guilty - rather, I can only assume that it is guilt that I am feeling. I don’t really know. Anyway, my hope was that by writing words into something, my mind would grow tired for the moment. But perhaps I am only encouraging behavior I would prefer to cease.

this weekend i was pretty good at making a detailed list of things to do and sticking with it. i got distracted by the football games and did a little less (and less effective) studying than i should have. last night, japanese class had a holiday (MLK). i ended up making currying and watching the godfather, part ii (which is a great movie). i had watched the original on saturday and i hope to watch the 3rd one this weekend.

Monday: Japanese Tuesday: UW Wednesday: Japanese Thursday: Isilon party Friday: Aaron’s birthday party Saturday: possibly poker Sunday: bridge night at Pete’s I’d better do some homework!

i’m not sure if the 3 hours of ping pong, the 30 quarters of shoot-em-up, or the five games of foosball did it – i woke up with a throbbing pain in my right hand. i think it got worn out from too much fun! last night was our big “good work” party for last year’s major software release. as a token of gratitude, the company bought all the engineers mini ipods.

it took me a long time to realize it, but i’ve been pretty selfish the last few months. if i spent as much time thinking about math as i do about Eriko, i’d be a math genius.