i’ve been feeling a little overwhelmed for the last several months. in particular, when i think of the upcoming wedding and the changes which will follow. i’ve been trying to anticipate the changes, or worrying about the inevitable ups and downs, but neither has made me very comfortable. at the same time, i’ve noticed a loneliness within myself become more apparent. initially, my reaction and thoughts were to blame the interaction between Eriko and I, which is strange in its own right.

buy a macintosh laptop upgrade (and move) the servers use the servers for storage reduce in-house computing to firewall and possible local storage cache

yesterday, I: met some old co-workers/friends for breakfast cleaned house transferred Sun Tzu's Art of War (audio book) to MD installed a new Mazda battery in the Miata went grocery shopping installed a florescent light above the kitchen sink (after measuring and drilling) practiced Kanji started internationalizing the diary/journal/blog application for Eriko re-watched a movie, Playing God cooked some pork sat very still, with Bailey sleeping peacfully on my lap

to harness all of my talents to improve my life. i currently misuse some virtues and incorrectly consider others vices. i think with sufficent effort, i can put this puzzle together…

i’ve prepared a binder full of immigration information, with 34 pages… and i don’t know if it is good enough. ;) i’ll be attempting to contact a lawyer ttomorrow…

Although my feelings are real, the causes are invented and blown out of proportion. I have such high expectations for love but I must remember that Rome was not built in a day. On those days where the loving feeling is gone, I have plenty of other things in life which can bring me cheer.